I started this blog a year and a half ago so in reality it’s like day 547.
How disgusting is that? I couldn’t even stick with it for two days. It’s not as if I haven’t been trying to lose weight the whole time, I have (and I’ve failed, evidently) but life gets in the way.
Nothing that I recall happened after June 13th, 2013 to make me stop blogging about my weight loss journey (God, I hate that term. I realize it is a “journey” but is that not the most overused word ever in the diet lexicon?) but life got in the way.
I took my daughter on a camping trip to see Mount Rushmore that summer, shortly after the 4th of July. It was the hottest time of the year to be driving through South Dakota let alone putting up and taking down a tent each day. I suffered heat stroke with a side of panic attack that landed me in the ER for a couple of hours. None of the doctors suggested my weight had anything to do with it but I know that if I had been in better shape it wouldn’t have happened.
Being in better shape would have provided me with more self confidence to take on such a trip alone. I’m pretty sure my panic attack stemmed from my worry about what would happen to my daughter, out in the middle of nowhere, if something happened to me. The added pleasure of assembling a tent each evening in the dusty, hot plains also contributed to my sense of being overwhelmed by life.
I’ll come back to this experience later because in hindsight it has been pivotal.
This time I really mean it. I am going to lose weight. My original goal, back in 2013 was to get my weight down to 145lbs. I believe that goal is part of my problem. 145 has always been my go to weight (another thing I’ll discuss in the days and weeks to come). The problem is as I get older it’s farther and farther away making it a more and more challenging goal.
Realistically I want to lose 15 pounds in the next month.
That’s going to be a challenge because my birthday is in a week and then I leave for Las Vegas for a trade show the following day. When I return both of my kids will celebrate their birthdays and then it’s Valentine’s Day. Did I mention we just celebrated Christmas and the New Year?
But, I am sure I can do it. I know I can. I’ve done it before, I can do it again. And, hopefully this time I’ll be accountable because of this weight loss blog.