Bariatric Surgery Personal Story: Second Appointment with my Nutritionist
I had my second appointment with my nutritionist today. I am proud to announce that I am exactly the same weight I was last month.
And that took some work.
I got on the scale about a week before my appointment and realized I’d gained two pounds. I didn’t have to lose weight for approval for surgery, but I am not allowed to gain any weight. I had a week to lose two pounds (which should be easy) so eliminated all snacking and upped my daily steps. I lost the two pounds but was pretty nervous about the whole thing. I am also ashamed of myself for gaining the weight even though my nutritionist said I shouldn’t kick myself for it.
Now, in my defense, I have kicked the Diet Coke habit, and that wasn’t easy. I was drinking at least 6 cans of the putrid stuff each day. I always had a can of Diet Crack nearby. I rarely finished a can, because it would taste nasty to me after a while, but I was always sipping on one. If I allowed myself to snack a little more than usual I figured it was okay since I was giving up Diet Coke for ever.
At my nutritionist appointment we went over some of the rules I’ll have to follow after I have my surgery. I won’t be able to drink water, or any beverage for that matter, half an hour before a meal and half an hour after a meal. I am not allowed to drink anything during the meal.
The idea of not being able to drink during a meal sort of terrifies me. What if it’s my dried out pot roast? What if something gets stuck? What if I just can’t get used to the idea of not having a beverage in front of me when I eat? What will I do at holidays?
Ugh, there is so much to worry about!
And, of course that’s silly. My worries seem to have more to do with how other people perceive me than if I really want a beverage. I’ve been trying to follow the 30/30 rule when I eat but right now I don’t need to so that makes it challenging. When I do remember to not have water with my meal it’s odd.
My nutritionist says it will get easier, especially when I have my tool in place.
What an odd way to talk about my soon to be mutilated stomach. I get it, the surgery and smaller stomach is a tool to help me better manage the way I eat. In my head, I still feel like I’m cheating. Like if I only summoned a little more will power I’d be able to do this on my own. Hell, I’ve done it on my own several times. I know losing is not the problem, I can lose weight, I just can’t keep it off.
Of course I discussed all of this with my nutritionist who assured me that I am not taking the easy way out. She also said to wait until I have to do my 14 day pre op liquid diet before I decide it’s the easy way out.
She gave me a meal planner and told me to start tracking all my food. I already use My Fitness Pal, but she wanted me to try her method too. It’s a series of tallies for each carb, fat and protein – no calorie counting. I’ll give it a go, but I’ll continue to use My Fitness Pal.
I made an appointment for next month and scheduled my ultra sound and sleep study over the next couple of weeks.
So far so good.